( there is, of course, also the fact that her grandmother has killed far more than she could ever really imagine - but that's not the tale for today. )

I don't think that's selfish. ( to see that something better is out there and not want it would, frankly, be crazier than the alternative. ) Especially when if it's changed your mind enough to work towards that instead.

( the last bit does make her laugh a little, nudging her shoulder with hers before ushering them up and along to continue with this severely derailed trip for.. berries and pie things. also. wdym. this is a date? )

Why are you sorry? I was the one who asked. You gave me an honest answer even though you were scared. That counts for something.